3 Years-ish and Catching Up
I’ve definitely dropped the ball on blogging. In all honesty, there’s been so much happening I’ve just not felt the motivation to blog. But here I am – if anyone is still out there?!?!
So this week marks 6 years since I moved to Singapore from London. Holy moly. Six freaking years! Where did the time go? It doesn’t feel like it’s been that long. It feels like it’s only been 2-3 years max but the calendar tells me differently. I think I need a new calendar! 😉
This week also marks 3 years since I started this little blog! For the few readers I still have left, I’ve obviously not been consistently blogging in the past few months, much less the last year. I keep thinking of all the posts that I still haven’t written every time I go through my photos on my phone. Oops. And then I think, what’s the point? But then I have to remember that this little space is a memory book of sorts and maybe, maybe by off chance someone reads it, they’ll get inspired to travel to some of the places I’ve been or maybe even take a leap and go live the expat life. Who knows? Without a doubt, this little space has enabled me to connect with so many lovely ladies whom I would have never “met” had I not started Jewels Wandering. I will definitely try to be better at posting more frequently for the remainder of the year. I just renewed my domain name, so…
Let’s also talk about why I’ve been MIA here. I was really excited for 2018 but so far, it’s been an upward battle. I’ve not been in the best place mentally and emotionally and I’ve been digging deep into my being to come out of this hole I fell into. I have been feeling completely and utterly depleted; my cup has been feeling rather empty lately, for a while actually.
Being away from family is never easy, but the older I get, the harder it’s become. I am blessed to have an amazing family who I absolutely love and adore; they respect my choices to go and explore the world and they really let me live my life. But I’ve been apart from them for way too long now – fun fact: I left when I was 16 because I wanted to go to boarding school. So since then, there’s only been one year where we’ve overlapped in living in the same city – that was NYC back in 2005. And now that my brother has 2 adorable little boys, saying goodbye just gets that much harder. There’s also been a lot of health issues going on with my brother’s family that makes me feel even more guilty being so damn far away. I won’t say what’s going on there as it’s not my story to tell. I am sure all will be okay in the long run, but nevertheless I am not in position to help being a billion miles away.
A few of my closest friends left Singapore last year that left me super sad. I’ve spent my whole life saying “see you later” to my friends, but these departures really left a mark on me. We all still chat on a regular basis, so that helps but there’s nothing like meeting up for a drink after work after a shitty day. However, that’s not to say that I’ve been left completely friendless here in Singers! So don’t feel too sorry for me! 😉 I still have some amazing friends here and I’ve also acquired an awesome new friend – here’s looking at you, Amira! <3
Work, schmork. When you spend the majority of your days in the office, you want to at least like what you do. I don’t hate what I do, but it’s definitely been feeling like that. I’ve been feeling stuck and thinking there must be more I can do with my life then this!! It’s also my fault, I got too comfortable. I was making the best of a bad situation when really, I should be looking for the best in a good situation. I’ve started the ball rolling on this, so let’s see if I can find something I feel more fulfilled in. Thoughts and prayers welcome!!! 😀
And well, let’s talk about my love life, shall we? Or the lack thereof? I will say that the past couple of months, I’ve been doing a lot of writing in my journal and well, there are some things I will have to keep to myself. But if you guys know any nice eligible men, do send them my way!!
I’ve been working out regularly with my trainer again which has definitely helped boost my spirits. I gave up personal training (PT) last year because it’s expensive, but this year I said, screw it. I enjoy PT. Not only does it keep me with a modicum of sanity, it’s also good for me. But would you believe I sprained my ankle 4 weeks ago? FML. I was coming off the escalator and missed a step and I fell into a heap at the bottom. But if I hadn’t been doing PT, then I would have just not worked out the past month but with my PT, I’ve been able to keep working out by working around my injury. It’s almost better, but I still have some pain when trying to move my foot to the side. Let’s hope that this is the last injury I have – ever!
To state the obvious, we are now mid-March. Holy F! I have to say that I feel like I’m finally leaving that dark place I’ve been hiding in and am feeling lighter and excited for what’s around the corner – whatever that may be!! Tomorrow, I am off to Japan where I will meet up with my mom and together we’ll go see my grandparents (I haven’t seen them in 10 years! Eeek, I am a BAD granddaughter!)/her parents.
If you’ve made it down to the bottom of this post, I’ll buy you a drink! With that, I hope all is well in your neck of the woods!