9 months, and no, I’m not pregnant!

After my last long distance relationship, I promised myself I would never do another one.  Why put myself through that again?  Yet, here I am again.. I think I must just like to make my life difficult? HAHA Who knows!!  My friend once said to me after hearing I was in a LDR, that I am scared of commitment.  And he was right, to a certain degree.  I am scared of committing myself to a location, but not to an individual.  I had just never met a guy who was up for an adventure, up for the nomadic lifestyle that I grew up knowing and have carried on living.  Until I met B.  In some ways, he was/is perfect for me.

So today we celebrate 9 months of being together.  I know, 9 months is a weird number to celebrate, but hey! Considering we’ve been together longer than we have actually spent time together, its an achievement!  Especially at my age, I’m not in my twenties anymore, where anything seemed possible back then.  Nope, today I’m older and more cynical.  My patience keeps wearing thin.  I want things to happen NOW!

But I embarked on this journey with him and I couldn’t imagine not having him in my life.  Even though we are apart, we are together.  We chat so much, I can’t even tell you the number of selfies we’ve taken, just so that we can share with each other where we are and what we are doing.  This is how we do it, this is how we stay relevant in each others lives, despite the distance.  I’m not going to lie, it still sucks and I have my moments of doubts.  But we always keep the line of communication opened, so when I do have my doubts, we do talk about it and try to figure out how to get past it.

I love that I wake up every morning to a “good morning” message from him.  And no matter what time I’m getting home, he wants to know I got home safe.  We have spent a lot of time getting to know each other through words.  Talking. Listening.  He lets me be me.  He is not trying to change me into his idea of the perfect woman.  He accepts me for who I am, and that is so incredible.  We have our differences, but we embrace them and we accept it as part of what makes us unique.  Ultimately, it’s only a matter of time before we are able to combine our lives.  There is an end to this distance, this distance is just temporary.  But can we just fast forward to that point in time?!!

Until then, I will live my life and enjoy my life.  And I look forward to my future when being apart means waiting for him to get home.